Dave Cooper at the Zeb Mountain Rally

Sunday, I hopped in the car with Paco and drove to Elk Valley, Tennessee, for the march on Zeb Mountain. I was greeted by about 100 other activists and concerned citizens that are upset about the state of affairs with mountain top removal mining (ahem, i mean surface mining in TN, since they deny that they do MTR) and want to make a statement to the corporations, local government, and really, the world about how stupid it is for us to be destroying the watersheds and forests of Appalachia. Watersheds that we drink from, and need to drink from in the future.

Root Digger and woman extraordinaire, Carol Judy from Eagan, TN

I was humbled by the voices of so many other coalfield residents like myself (a new-to-the-coalfields but generations-long appalachian person) who are angry about what’s being done to their communities. Carol Judy is one of these that humbles me, encourages me, and fills me with peace, knowing that there are so many respectable, kind, loving, and intelligent people fighting mountain top removal. Being around people like Carol and our friend Vicki, who also showed up with her granddaughter (granddaughter below)

Vicki's Granddaughter's Brilliant Sign

I too, am an appalachian, not a rich activist (I think a “Rich activist” would need to make above 30k a year, but who am I to know?), but would say that I am an activist. Too many meetings and rallys and protests under my belt to say otherwise.

As a rally, this one was good. The cops were nice, (isn’t that strange to write) the sun was shining, and those that were arrested were arrested by choice/conscience. Shouldn’t they all go that way? Here’s a lil’ ole video clip from the action…

today, i’ve seen:

• a barred owl
• approximately 40 elk, 4 of which were sparring males
• 6 wild turkeys
• 7 deer
• sign of beaver
• 1 happy happy dog traipsing through the beaver pond
• 1 loving face, (Paco)
• 1 happy cat

today, i’ve heard:

• the amazing chorus of frogs at the beaver pond
• my own voice as i serenade the herd of male elk
• the swishing noise of graham’s tail wagging furiously when i offered a walk
• bird after bird after bird calling and chirping 

I am the most blessed woman on earth.To see some photos of today’s miracle of a day, check out:http://www.flickr.com/photos/pinemountaincass/Love to all. This is an amazing world.

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Paco and I are doing good. it’s a little crazy that we don’t have high speed internet, cell phone service, cable, or even a home phone at the present, but we’ve been spending a lot more time together, walking the dog twice a day, playing in the woods, and avoiding unpacking all of our house.We are five miles short of receiving DSL. Hopefully they’ll drag those cables just a bit further, but if not, we’ll be okay. Dial up at workis not as slow as I had thought, though you do have to let someone know that you’re getting on so that they get off…crazy how much i took that T1 connection for granted back at Mars Hill!The house is great. It’s more than great, it’s fabulous!!! I love it. It has a porch swing, neat interior, and a cute kitchen. We’ve had fungetting it squared away.My sewing room is fabulous as well. I ‘ll post pics of the house once we get it cleaned up and unpacked…The best part is being so close the woods. We can walk out our kitchen door and in two minutes be out in the forest. We hiked up to these big limestone boulders the other day and played there. Graham loves this place!And there are elk! Big Furry Elk! All over the place.Mom, Dad, Jason, Jill, Fox, my cousin Elizabeth, our friend Joe, Paco’s brother Ryan, and me and Paco all moved us in. It was great to have everyone here for our move and right before our birthday. It made all the difference.I’m not used to being off the matrix, but can see good in it. seems like things are a little slower here. Paco and i went hiking and played outside, only to find that it was 2 o’clock when we got back. we had done so much already throughout the day, and it was only 2 o’clock!!!crazy.i bought myself a wristwatch for my birthday. it’s the first watch i’ve had in 4 years, since i didn’t have a cellphone to keep time for me!i think i like my job. it’s a little too soon to know exactly what i’ll be doing, but i think it will go well. i like my boss and my coworkers, and the environment is great!my email is the same. Paco has a cell we can use off the mountain down in harlan.

Okay, I’m leaving my job. I’m leaving my family. I’m leaving HOME. I’m leaving this monstrosity of a life that I have here in Aville, and trading it in for some hopes and ideas and anticipation for life in the Kentucky coal fields.

And I think that I’m okay with this. In fact, I am pretty sure that I am purt-near excited.

PM is an amazing place. There are great people that work there, and great people that have worked there in the past. It’s in a totally different place than my blue ridge mountain home of generations (spanning centuries), but it’s in a place that warrants attention and energy.

I guess one of the harder things about all of this is that I am genuinely sad to leave my work at the Hill. There are so many projects that will be left unfinished, so many ideas and dreams that I had about things here left unfufilled. I never really thought that I would leave, I never thought that I would follow through with my desires for wandering or exploring other places, I was convinced that I wanted to be HOME, where I could have a family, be with my family, and raise our future kid in consistency and comfort in our ancestral homelands. I had not thought that I could be enticed enough to leave that for anything.

However, the PM is an amazing place. The opportunity to do meaningful work with my sweetheart cannot be undervalued. The opportunity to work under a capable and wise director cannot be underated. The gift of working in a place with wonderful forests to explore cannot be disregarded. H County is an amazing place chock full of real life examples of the complicated relationship between land and people, energy companies and local residents, and the many hardships for people and their environment because of the extraction of natural gas and coal mining, especially mountain top removal. I am excited about going to PM and meeting people in the community as well as the school— people who have interesting stories and struggles to share and people that I know we can really learn from.

I don’t want to go up there with some convoluted “do-gooder” attitude that several people have tried to pawn off on me when I’ve shared the news about our move. I know what roles (both the good and bad) that outsiders play in a community. I don’t have grandious plans of “fixing” H County. I don’t want people there to lump me in that category of furriner/do-gooder. I know that it’s probably inevitable that that will happen, but my intention is to go and participate. I am excited to share anything that I know that is of value to folks or that can create more efficiency, but I am also really excited to learn various things from the great people that live up there.

Outside of Caretta, WV, I met a wonderful woman at the Muncy Cabin who I plan to meet back up with this spring to learn more edible/medicinal plants that she knew. There are numerous musicians and ballad singers that I want to sit knee to knee with and talk/learn about their music. I am excited about the quilters that get together at PM. I am eager to meet the school children that come, and excited to learn from all the staff there.

So if you know me, really at all, then you will know how much I love my little nephew! He’s such an adorable little stinker. Here’s some recent photographs from his mommy, my dear sister in law Jill!

Here, Fox is fishing for beer cans out of Uncle Kelly’s recycling! What a little scavenger!

Foxie is learning to play the drums on Mom and Dad’s new drumset! Look at how well he holds the drumsticks, all on his own! He was such a pro that day…

So I went to my high school reunion this past Saturday night. It was not like what I expected… I half expected a lot of childishness and clique-type behavior. What I found was how good it was to see people that I had known since kindergarten, how neat it was to see who people ended up with, what they looked like, what their lives were like!

I really had a lot of emotional response after the event. I was very aware, after it was all over of all the emotional energy I picked up and had attached to me. To know that all of us are in the “Saturn Returns” phase of our life, and we are all, on some level, reconciling our choices and our behaviors was very energetically apparent to me. Now I know some of you reading this may not buy into my “woooish” thoughts, but there’s no denying how high the divorce rates are during the “Saturn returns” faze, and you could definitely do the math with our folks at the reunion and see the reality in the high divorce rates…

I’m not condemning anyone that has gotten divorced. On the contrary, I think that it’s important to accept and realize that we simply are not who we once were, and that it’s better to figure out ourselves, our mission in life, and the lessons we need to learn.

My thoughts on this apply, I think, range from the most successful person in the room to the person with the most to overcome. We all are in this process, we are all challenged with making ourselves be more real, more genuine.

At this reunion, I tried really hard to not ask, “what do you ‘do’ (WHAT A LOADED QUESTION IS THAT)” or “are you married,” or “where did you go to school”… of course I slipped up and asked this kind of thing a couple times, but I consciously didn’t want to do that. Most people volunteered that information, anyway, if they wanted you to know it. I wanted to (and tried to) ask questions like “are you happy now?” “Where are you finding happiness?” I heard lots of stories about divorces and separation from children and sadness. I know people could take one look at me and judge me, to know that I had sadness and frustration because of the evidence of my obvious weight gain. I’m okay with that. My weight gain is not a sign of weakness, like I used to think it was, but rather a sign of reality, a sign of how one can easily set aside their health and body while wrestling with other matters. I hope that it’s like the worn out velveteen rabbit who just wanted to be real, to be loved. I hope that the one good thing that could come from getting heavy is that it’s forced me to take a real hard look and see myself for my strengths and my flaws.

The one thing that really stayed with me at this reunion (after I had time to start thinking it through) is that many of us have sold our souls, on some level, and traded our freedom and pursuit of our dreams for comfort, for security. My friend Heidi pointed out that the reunion-anxiety was not about confronting old friends and acquaintances, but really about confronting our old selves, and seeing if we measure up to what we had intended to become. I’ve thought alot about that, and hope that others are thinking about this too… I hope that everyone there is now thinking about how true to themselves have they remained, how focused they have been on fulfilling their dreams, and how driven they are to revisit those old dreams and ideas and to make peace with them. I hope that we, as adults, can make room for ourselves, as well as others, and trust that we’re all in process. Regardless of our social markers of success, and that someone with a tiny income and no “degrees” may be alot closer to this then someone with six figure salaries and prestige. None of those degrees or dollars really mean anything, really, and may prove more harmful than good in the long run, if they distract us from fulfilling our dreams and becoming powerful loving and kind people.

Enough for now. That was an exciting whirlwind of interaction. I am sending love to everyone I saw, hoping and praying that they all find peace, balance, creativity, love, comfort and personal power.

So I don’t know how many of you out in Cyberville, USA are reading this, but if you are, did you care about your high school reunion?

I’m really not someone who cares about all that, but somehow, I’ve gotten myself right in the middle of planning/contacting about the whole dern thing!

 I’m planning on going, even though Paco can’t go, but for what, really? to confirm that i must still care, on some level, about what folks from high school think about me? to reconnect with people that i would have probably not lost contact with if we had needed to stay friends? to pat myself on the back for not turning out like someone else did?

i don’t think that these are my sole reasons for going, i am honestly curious, nostalgic, and feel obligated to go, but am jealous of the people that are impenetrable on the list, those of the folks that are just so dang happy they can’t stand it, whether their living in Gerton, NC with they’re three kids and husband or whether they’re floating around Africa, serving in the peace corps…

I know it’s stupid to even care about, but are people going to even like me now? I mean, back then, I listened to Rush Limbaugh for my intellectual fodder, NOT Noam Chomsky. I was religious then and really preachy. Now, I’m spiritual, but not religious at all, and have gone a complete 180 on the things I used to be “preachy” about to begin with! I don’t look like, dress like, or talk like I did then. Hell, I don’t even think like I did then! (Thank goodness…)

So why do I feel so bound to go? How many times will I have to explain my degree, my career path? How many times will I have to explain my life choices? My politics?

 Or, am I just too hopeful that we’ll have real conversation? Won’t we probably talk about how many of us are fat now, or bald now, or who was funny back then, or easy, or mean, and what teachers we liked, and how goofy this or that was…

I suppose I’ll just have to cope. But I swear, I hope that I can have some stimulating and interesting conversation there… I hope it’s not all about “ohmigod, things have changed so much!”